Thursday, July 8, 2010

Ambitious-self

" Denyut Kasih Medik "
Berjayakah misi seorang doktor muda dlm memperjuangkan syariat hospital ketika bergelar seorang doktor pelatih? ..
 sebuah novel karya Dr. Farhan Hadi terbitan Telaga Biru


I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR
satu cita2 yg sgt tinggi.
am i capable to be this? am i good enough? am i clever enough? am i suits this kind of job? am i ikhlas enough? am i tough enough? am i ? soalan bertubi2. org kate jd doctor susah. xbole leka. ohh god. i dont know wht to feel. im scared if i cant achieve my own ambition. if dulu, hati mmg xnk jd doktor. knp? sbb pd akuu. hmmm " klo slh buat, abz mati ank orgg " ayt yg slalu ak ckp dulu. before hasrat mnjadi seorg doktor tertanam d jiwa. tp skgg. semua berubah. ak tekad utk mnjadi seorang doktor. dont know whyy. tp, jauh d sudut hati, aku takut. takut xkuat. takut xmampu. takut xmampu jd seorang yg baik. takut xmmpu mencari keikhlasan dlm hati. takut xmmpu mencari keberkatan dlm kerja. novel tuu sikit sebanyak bg aku ilmu. ilmu utk kuatkn hati. seriously, aku takut. im on my way finishing this novel. entahlah. bercelaru sbnrnye. mcm terlalu berat utk mnjadi doktor. jiwa mmg minat. hati pown da seru pktaan doktor tu. tp akal mcm nk denied. mcm ask ckp "error error". HAHA im just hoping for the best. well. aku cume mampu merancang.everything will be set up by Him. whatever it is, im striving for the best noww. SPM.

mission : searching "keikhlasan" dlm hati sndry. keikhlasan hati utk mnjadi seorang doctor 100% kerana Allah bkn sbb2 sampingan yg hny mmpu mengukir perasaan RIAK d hati :) hopefully. Amin. THE END

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