Saturday, October 30, 2010

Kau Aku, and most of it is HIM


i have something to story here. bukan cerita apa, cuma penat pendam rasa. entahla. sometimes, i cant translate something in heart through words. yes. im not so good in telling story face to face. itu kelemahan aku. cerita best pun jd boring if aku yg ceritakan. HAHA. dah mmg perangai. nk buat mcm mne en. okay go.

STARTING
tadi ada extra class addmath. tym bru nk bg group, tetiba wanted ckp " nad, adk ko knp smlm ttbe mengamuk kt fb? " aku pun. ckp " ape pulak kali niy? hishhh. dy type ape? " then wanted ckp " dia bce msg kau ape nta patu terkilan la apela " aku pun hampir nk burst kat situ. HISH " lagi sekali? melampau seyh. "

that day, you read it. now again. mmg betul smlm dy ada pegang fon aku. tp ak igtkn dgr lagu jea. WEYH. my fon is my privacy la seyh. but that one aku takde la kesah sgt. bila ak pk blk, mmg sakit hati pun ble bce org mengumpat kita kn. bukan setakat mengumpat, mengutuk lg ape segala. tp entahlah. niat hati mmg nk aje marah. marah sbb disturb my privacy. yelah. lme2 secret aku semua dy tahu. bnyk lemak kau. fon kau ak tk kacau pun kan. ISY.

tp cuba pk rasionalnyaa. first time, dy bukak msg aku and bce org mengadu psl dy kat aku. ofc perasaan nk bce pd lain hari tu dtg lagi. betul tak? so, is that his mistake? i dont think so.

before niy, setiap kali dy buat hal dgn anyone or org bercerita psl dia kt aku, ak amk tak endah even actually those thing ada dlm hati aku. and thats why aku slhkn diri aku sendiri. sbb tk mampu jd seorang kakak yg baik maybe. tak pndai jge adk. and people around me try so hard to make him a better person by spilling everything in front of me. NOT in front of him. haa. persoalan sekarang, if someone tu betul2 nk 'betul'kn dia, why not you yourself go for him. i mean, tegur dia personally. teach him wht is wrong and wht is right. tak pyah nk pergi secara ramai2 segala. or else, telling me all of that. im tired of hearing all those stuff. lagi satu, kau tak kenal dia mcmne lg tp mcm2 kau ckp kn. sekadar apa yg anda lihat di fb. sahih kah bukti itu? betul jgk adk aku ckp, people only see his mistake. and people only want to know the worse of him. those good things? they just ignore. frankly, i want him to be better. but, i dont know wht i have to do. this thing stucke my head. cuma sbb aku nk SPM kadang2 aku tak pk pun. tp if tak pk dr sekarang, aku takut things turn to worse. hmmmm
let me ask you something. What is actually your problem with him? tak suke perangai dia yg selalu update status or anything? hey people. others also did that. seriously, aku sendiri pun mmg tak suke org mcm tu. since dulu lagi. pd aku org mcm tu mcm takde kje lain nk buat. that kind of person is equal to people yg gila glamor. tp itu kn hak mereka. ak biar je la. apa mslahnya? dlm hidup niy, bukan semua org ada pemikiran mcm kita. tk semua org pk mcm kita. that is his life, let him be. kenapa nk jdkn itu satu issue besar? aku tak faham. people have their own life kn? why dont we just accept that? okay. tentang perhatian semua tu. aku rasa lah kn. semua org sedia maklum, mmg ada manusia yg sebegitu dlm hidup niy. cari publisiti. or dlm kate lain, me'market'kan diri. weyh. setakat like or update status seminit 10 kali bukan lah mslah yg besar. tu haaaa. orangorang yg mendekati diri anda sbb anda market, itu mslah besar. kita tak tahu keikhlasan masing2. tentang adik aku niy, he chose his life like that. teenagers. takkan tak fhm kn? kan semua org tak same. and this is him.
bila fikirkn semula, apa yg berlaku ke ats dia and how he acted. everything berpunca drpd kita semua. yes. everybody is wrong. from the part when you come to him with that 'sweet' smile which i consider as "senyuman perli" until you come to him with those good word and everything. semuanya berkaitan. betul tak?

so, i have a solution here. why dont you, i mean all of you stop judging him. just treat him like others. when he is wrong, on spot come to him and tell him. stop those unessential action like telling me everthing or cakap belakang tentang dia. people with nice intention will come out with nice action. dan kepada my brother, stop looking people with your negative-think. and learn to decide wht is wrong and wht is right. learn how to interpret people who is really nice or people who only try fooling you. yang elok, ikut. yang tak elok, just ignore. that is the way for you to mature yourself.

last but not least, i consider this issue is DONE.
tell me something useful, something that should be tell. things like dont really important, no need.
i have so many things to think about rather than this non-essential thing. sorry if wht i said, hurt your feelings.
it's not that i dont care. i just want people to know wht actually i think. and i take this as serious matter. dont ever think that i have no heart. i do have.
thanks for reading.
THE END

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