Sunday, October 10, 2010

self-concious

diam tak diam, hari niy dah 10 october. haaaa. sebulan 13 hari lg nk SPM. seram? ofc la seh. aku normal weh. tp wht else can i do? tunggu je lah and hadapi. semua orang ada rezeki masingmasing. tu janji Allah pd hambanyaaa kn? cerita nk jadi doktor pulaa. makin lama semangat niy makin hilang. bukan apa, tibatiba rse mcm impossible. knp heh? entah la. mari ikuti cerita niyyy

" dlu mse my brother bru nk msuk uni. dy dpt matrix kuala pilah. cadangan asal, dy nk amk medic lah. mmg cita2 nk jd doct. dgn result dy tuu, if dy smbung matrix insyaallah bole. tp yg dy harapkan sme mcm aku. pra-ijazah kedoktoran. tp dy tak dpt. yg dy dpt pra-ijazah kejuruteraan di uitm shah alam. nty confirm2 dpt kerja and engineering course is not so bad. drpd nnty lps matrix kne mohon upu lg and tk tahu lg dpt medic ke tak kn. so, he chose that. and noww, lg satu semester dy konvo dah pun. lepas tu keje kt proton terus. kn senanggg."

itu bkn masalah yg ingin ak ketengahkn sekarangg. abg aku sekadar menjadi contoh. yg jadi masalahnyaaa. result dy yg superbb tu pun tdk melepasi utk dpt pra-ijazah kedoktoran. apatah lagi aku niy kannn. i got a very-very-very-double-triple BIG question mark here in my brain when i think of that. yelah. result ntah ape ape ada hati nk jd doctor. this is wht i feel sejak dua menjak niyy. fuhhh. kuat betul dugaan perasaan dlm diri aku. tp nak tahu apa aku buat utk atasi semua niy? i told my dearest mama.

and she said ....

" semua org ada rezeki masingmasing. yg penting awk usaha je sebaik boleh. lepaskan spm dulu. doctor or anything tu semua lepas spm punya cerita. tak jd doctor pun takpe. yg penting spm niyyy. tak semua yg kte nk, kte dpt. doa je la bnyakbanyak.."

semangat rebuild dlm hati sndry. tibatiba terfikir. if abg bole 9A, why not me kn? mungkin doa abg tk ckup panjang dlu kott. haha. no worries. being a doctor or not, is not the issue. but how you tolerate with what you want is the issue. and wht i want noww? this one. best result fr my spm. not being a doctor.



p/s : semua org ada reasons sndry fr everything they want in their life. and semua org tahu limit masingmasing. jgn jdkan posting niy stu yg negatif. rebuild your confidence with my words. dont destroy it okay :)
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