I still remember the moment when i wanted to decide whether to further my study or to work. I had both opportunity came at the same time. I decided to resign from pharmacy as i want to try other jobs. So i apply any opportunity that cross my eyes (because i looked from internet).
I applied, i went for interview. Both interviews kind of accept me.
The second interview in Subang Jaya goes well. The payment was good, package offered was in lane with my preferences to work. However, i came into sense that I want to do more in my life. I don't want to just working 8am to 5 pm then at the end of the month, i enjoyed the pay and that is it.
Career path in this lane, won't bring me to a better version of me.
I knew, because that happened when i worked in pharmacy last time. I can do the work, i learnt a lot while working, i got paid but i lost myself due to time constraint too. I am not saying further study > work. Both have their own pros and cons. I said all these as it is for me not for other people. I have known myself too much that make me to think this way.
Back to the moment.
After i went to interview, i got 3 days to decide whether a yes or a no. Then, on the same day i went to see my previous supervisor in UPM just to say hi and asking for her opinion about me to further my study. However, she offered me to be supervised under her. I didn't expect that. Because i emailed few other supervisors weeks ago, and they were not replying yet. But then when i met her, the supervisors replied me. On the same day. I received new mails.
Just imagine how confused i was that time.
I went home, with pieces of heart. I ask opinions from people. I ask Allah for help. I made istikharah. This was a major step in life, i was too afraid to decide wrongly.
But, Allah has magic. All the way.
He move my heart towards further my study with my previous supervisor.
And here i am. Exceeding my first semester with lots of learning.
And here i am. Welcoming this second semester with open heart and walking dreams.